爱到尽头
cym 合并中英字
这是一本日记 This is a diary...
关于... of...
... 怨恨的 hate.
也许我就不会写下来 And perhaps I wouldn't be writing it...
如果不是哪根筋不对 那晚阻止他 if some devil hadn't made me stop him that night...
在雨中 in the rain.
亨利，你想要被淹死吗？ You want to drown, Henry?
我需要点新鲜空气 I wanted a bit of air.
班德瑞克斯，你好 How nice to see you, Bendrix.
多久没见了？一年了吗？ How long has it been? A year?
自1944年六月 June, 1944.
从那时开始？ As long as that?
莎拉好吗？ How's Sarah?
她出去了 Oh, she's out and about somewhere.
她在戏院吗？ She at the cinema?
不，她从不去戏院 No, she never goes.
亨利，晚安 Oh, good night, Henry.
你应该在没有病发前回家 You should go home before you catch your death.
有什么不对吗？ Is something wrong?
亨利，我带你回家吧 Let me take you home, Henry.
如果我知道要恨谁 Or perhaps I wouldn't be writing this...
也许我不该写 if I had known then who I hated.
是亨利吗？ 还是他太太莎拉吗？ Was it Henry? Was it his wife Sarah?
还是我不知道而另有其人？ Or was it some other who was yet to be revealed to me?
莎拉？ Sarah?
看到了吗？她还没回来 See? She's out still.
上楼来 Come upstairs.
进来 让我帮你弄点喝的 Come in. Let me get you a drink.
威士忌，谢谢 Whiskey, thank you.
威士忌 Whiskey.
亨利，什么事困扰着你？ So what's troubling you, Henry?
莎拉 Sarah.
她出去散步了，班德瑞克斯 She's out for a walk now, Bendrix.
散步 A walk.
她向来很喜欢散步 Well, she always was a great walker.
忌妒是很可怕的 Jealousy's a terrible thing.
亨利，你能相信我的 Well, you know you can trust me, Henry.
你知道，我竟然... You know, I went so far...
去打听了一个私家侦探的名字 as to get the name of a private detective.
她有外遇吗？ You think she's seeing someone?
-当然，你以为我是白痴 -亨利，不 - Of course you think me a fool. - No, Henry.
你不是白痴 I don't think you're a fool.
-你觉得有可能吗？ -当然 - You mean you think it's possible? - Of course.
莎拉也是人啊 Sarah's human.
我睡不着 Can't sleep.
一直拿起这张 Keep picking up...
烂名片 this wretched card.
“萨维其侦探社”
烧掉它 Burn it.
希望可以 萨维其，去看他是谁好吗？ - I wish I could. - Then go see what's-his-name, Savage?
坐在妒火中烧丈夫的席位上？ And sit where all the jealous husbands sit?
班德瑞克斯，他们有候客室吗 Do you think they have a waiting room, Bendrix...
那种路过就能看到对方的地方？ where we see each other's faces as we pass through?
亨利，怎么不让我去？ Why not let me go, Henry?
-你？ -对 - You? - Yes.
我能假装是为爱忌妒的情人 I could pretend to be a jealous lover.
忌妒的情人比忌妒的丈夫好些 Jealous lovers are less ridiculous than jealous husbands.
文学里都赞同这种角色 They're supported by the weight of literature.
具悲剧性，一点也没有喜感 想想特洛伊勒斯 Tragic, never comic. Think of Troilus.
我访问萨维其先生时 不该丢掉我的虚荣心 Well, I shan't lose my amour propre when I interview Mr. Savage.
真是太荒谬了 This is ridiculous.
一个人没办法透过朋友 监视他的老婆 One can't spy on one's wife through a friend...
又叫那个朋友当她的爱人 and have the friend pretend to be her lover.
-朋友用来干嘛的？ -班德瑞克斯，你真不错 - What else are friends for? - You're a good chap, Bendrix.
我只需要谈谈，理清头绪 All I needed was to talk, clear my head.
名字叫萨维其 地址是维哥路3号 The name was Savage, and the address was 3 Vigo Passage.
忘记我告诉过你的话 没道理，我去看医生 Forget what I've told you. Doesn't make sense. I'll see a doctor.
有人关门，莎拉进来了 That was the door. Sarah's come in.
是女佣，她去看电影了 It's the maid. She's been to the pictures.
不，是莎拉的脚步声 No, it was Sarah's step.
莎拉，亲爱的 Sarah, darling.
亨利 Henry.
-你 是你吗？ -出去散步吗？ - You--Is that you? - Been out for a walk?
是 今晚天候不好 - Yes. - It's a filthy night.
莎拉，你湿透了 有天你会感染致命的感冒 You're wet through, Sarah. One day you'll catch your death of cold.
晚安 Good night.
他们的婚姻很传统 Their marriage was conventional...
就像他们精給的房子 like their well-appointed house.
我喜欢他们俩 我们相遇的第一个夜晚 And I liked them both the first night we met...
因为西班牙的战争 喝着廉价的南非雪利酒 drinking bad South African sherry because of the war in Spain.
先生，晚安 Good evening, sir.
-我来帮你拿帽子 -谢谢 - May I take your hat? - Thank you.
迈尔斯先生在楼上 Mr. Miles is upstairs.
先生，雪利酒吗？ Sherry, sir?
谢谢 Thank you.
她看起来很不安 She seemed restless.
在1939年夏天 In the summer of 1939...
面对即将来临的风暴 整个伦敦都很不安 the whole of London was restless in the face of the coming storm.
你能来真好 How nice of you to come.
莎拉，我们的邻居 一位小说家 Sarah, this is our neighbor, the novelist chap.
小说家在这干嘛？ What on earth is a novelist doing here?
-做研究 -研究什么？ - Research. - On what?
你丈夫 On your husband.
我想写一位 在政府部门工作的角色 I'm trying to write a character who works for the Ministry of Pensions.
我需要知道他的习惯 睡前喝什么酒 I need to find out his habits, what he drinks before bedtime.
-可可 -什么时候喝 - Cocoa. - And when.
十一点，对吗，莎拉？ 除非我们在宴客 11:00, isn't it, Sarah? Unless we're entertaining.
容我失陪一下？ Would you be so kind as to excuse your character?
-部长要找人了 -很不幸，是的 - The ministry needs him. - Unfortunately it does.
-告诉我 -什么事？ - So tell me. - What?
-他的秘密 -亨利是个好人 - His secrets. - Henry's a good man.
-好人没有秘密 -我怕你这么说 - Good men have no secrets. - I was afraid you'd say that.
你看，老天 一点也没有小说价值 You see, goodness has so little fictional value.
什么才有小说价值？ What does have fictional value?
部长的内务安全状况 你说我丈夫是虚构的？ - A minister of Home Security. - Are you saying my husband is fiction?
我是说有可能 如果是正确的推论 I'm saying he could be, in the right hands.
天啊，这太危险了 这里耳目众多 Oh, dear. This is alarming. Can we get away from the service?
-你是说换个话题？ -我是说新鲜空气 - You mean change the subject? - I meant fresh air actually.
当然 Of course.
你结婚多久了？ 你的角色是已婚吗？ - So how long have you been married? - Is your character married?
是的，已婚十年 而且很美满 Yes, he's been married happily for ten years.
亨利是个很好的榜样 我们已经结婚十年了 Henry's the perfect model then. We've been married ten years.
你知道 You know that...
幸福比美好更难写 happiness is even harder to write than goodness.
亨利比较喜欢习惯胜过美满 Henry prefers habit to happiness.
-我明天会批准的 -亲爱的，我们在讨论房子 - I'll give them to you to sign. - We were discussing the house, darling.
让我帮你再装一杯 Let me fill that for you.
-房子真不错 -我太太找的 - It's a lovely house. - My wife found it.
你太太很美 And your wife is charming.
-她帮我很多 -我想一定是 - She's a great help to me. - Yes, I'm sure.
他们已经帮你的一部书 拍成片子，是吗？ They've made a picture of one of your books, haven't they?
是的，在里奥托上琈 Yes, it's playing at the Rialto.
-我带你们俩去 -恐怕太忙，没办法去 - I'll take you both. - Far too busy for pictures, I'm afraid.
我该记下来吗？ Should I make a note of that?
确定你的角色 十点前不会回家 Make sure your character never gets home before 10:00.
-亨利，出去走走好吗？ -亲爱的，你知道我没办法 - Come out, Henry, for once? - You know I can't, darling.
但你可以去 班德瑞克斯，带她去 But you go. Take her, Bendrix.
-莎拉，我坚持 -亨利 - Sarah, one has to insist. - Henry.
-你要去哪？ -去看奇迹 - Where are you going? - To see wonder.
-但你说好了 -保留凶手的承诺 - But you promised. - Murderer's promises keep.
-你知道这不是我写的 -你不能一直这么说 - It's not what I wrote, you know. - You can't keep saying that.
-真的 -我知道 - It's true. - I know.
但你真的写对一件事 There was one scene you did write.
说看看 Describe it.
他给她的餐点有洋葱 Where he offered her onions with her meal.
她拒绝了 因为她丈夫不喜欢这种味道 She refused because her husband didn't like the smell.
他生气了 He got angry.
他为什么生气？ And why did he get angry?
他不想她跟她丈夫回家 He didn't want to think of her going home to him.
亨利喜欢洋葱吗？ Does Henry like onions?
不喜欢 No.
我恋爱了 I'm in love, you know.
我也是 Me too.
苏珊？ Susan?
到楼上去 Come upstairs.
莎拉？ Sarah?
亲爱的，等一下 One minute, dear.
要是他听见了怎么办？ What if he heard?
他认不出这声音 He wouldn't recognize the sound.
-莎拉，你吃过洋葱吗？ -亲爱的，抱歉 - Sarah, you been eating onions? - Sorry, darling.
班德瑞克斯，片子如何？ So, Bendrix, how was the picture?
好看吗？ Up to scratch?
当然，她开始爱我 “维哥路3号” Of course, as she began to love me...
她学会欺骗亨利 she learned to deceive Henry.
而两年后她又欺骗他 So why was I upset to find that two years later...
我有什么好生气的？ she was deceiving him again?
班德瑞克斯，我假设我们 谈的是班德瑞克斯女士 Mr. Bendrix, I assume we are discussing Mrs. Bendrix.
不是，她是我朋友的太太 Not exactly. She's the wife of a friend of mine.
也许你和她很亲密？ Perhaps you and the lady are intimate?
没有 No.
从1944年后 我只见过她一次 I've only seen her once since 1944.
我不懂 I don't understand.
这只是个监视的案子 You said this was a watching case.
一个人爱恨不能这么久吗？ Can't one love or hate as long as that?
班德瑞克斯先生 忌妒并不可耻 There's nothing discreditable about jealousy, Mr. Bendrix.
我跟对真爱一样敬重它 I always salute it as the mark of true love.
我受丈夫之托而来 他认为她红杏出墙 I've come on behalf of the husband. He thinks she's deceiving him.
-她有秘密 -秘密 - She has secrets. - Ah, secrets.
-是的 -当然，可能也没什么 - Yes. - There may be nothing in it, of course.
班德瑞克斯先生，据我的经验 In my experience, Mr. Bendrix...
一定是有 there almost invariably is.
我的人要跟你报告 还是要跟她丈夫报告？ Shall my man report to you or the husband?
跟我报告， To me.
不能让他知道 He must know nothing about it.
真是有趣的案子 Most interesting case.
我的人都很谨慎 我马上派个人侦查 All my men use great discretion. I will put one on it immediately.
他会尽力让你放心 And he will do his damndest to put your mind at rest.
或是我该说让那位丈夫放心？ Or should I say the husband's?
你好？ Hello?
莎拉
很好 对，很高兴能见到你 Good. Yes, it was good to see you.
对，多久了？两年 Yes, how long has it been? Two years.
两年了？ As long as that?
你记性比我好 Well, you were always better at anniversaries than me.
你要见面吗？是要干嘛？ You want to meet? Well, whatever for?
明天不行，我有文章要写 Not tomorrow, no. I've got this article.
星期三？让我看看 Wednesday? Let me check.
星期四行吗？ Would Thursday do?
很好 一点，公园路旅馆好吗？ Good. The Park Lane Hotel at 1:00?
想想，战争期间 It was odd to think that during the war...
我们能够这么和平，真是奇怪 we could be so totally at peace.
好几个晚上 我真希望那些警报 There were nights when I wished those sirens...
从此不会结束 would never end.
再告诉我一次 Tell me again.
我爱你 I love you.
永远爱你 And I always will.
抱歉，我迟到了 我搭地铁，太挤了 I'm sorry I'm late. I came by tube, but it was crowded.
计程车比较快 Well, taxi is quicker.
我知道，我不想太快 I know. Didn't want to be quick.
我在帕莫麦尔订了位子 I booked a table at Palmer's.
我们不能待在这儿？ Can't we stay here?
我们不是都去那儿吗？ Well, it's where we always used to go.
你知道，我没回去过那里 You see, I've never been back there.
你不喜欢那家餐厅，对吗？ Well, it was never your restaurant, was it?
-你还去吗？ -对，一星期二至三次 - So you still go there? - Yeah, two or three times a week.
很方便 It's convenient.
我们走吧 Let's go.
谢谢 Thank you. Thanks.
-抱歉 -先生，没关系 - Sorry about that. - That's quite all right, sir.
半路上耽搁了 Got my hand caught in the way.
很高兴见到你，先生 Such a pleasure to see you, sir.
好久不见 我以为你忘了我们 It's been so long, I thought you'd forgotten us.
-我怕你这么说 -女士，你呢 - I was afraid you'd say that. - And you, ma'am.
-好久不见了 -阿佛列，两年了 - It's been a long time too. - Two years, Alfred.
-拿去 -谢谢 - There. - Thank you.
你为什么说谎？ Why did you lie?
说我来这的事？ 对 - About my coming here? - Yes.
你为什么想要见面？ Why did you want to meet?
我要问你亨利的事 I wanted to ask you about Henry.
亨利 Henry.
我担心他 I'm worried about him.
前几天晚上你怎么找到他的 他很奇怪吗？ How did you find him the other night?
我没注意到有什么不对 - Was he strange at all? - I didn't notice anything wrong.
我要问你 我知道你很忙 I wanted to ask you-- I know you're very busy--
你能不能偶尔查查他一下 whether you could look him up occasionally.
他很寂寞 I think he's lonely.
跟你？ With you?
你知道他从没真正注意我 You know he's never really noticed me...
几年来一直这样 not for years.
也许你已经给他理由这么做 Maybe you've given him reason.
我能给他什么理由？ What reason could I give?
你能给我什么理由？ What reason did you give me?
没有 None.
-你写新书吗？ -当然 - Are you on a new book? - Of course.
不是写我们的事吧？ 你威胁要写的那部 It's not about us, is it? The one you threatened to write.
花一年时间写 要报复太难了 A book takes a year to write. It's too hard work for revenge.
如果你能认清 报复的根本不值得 If you knew how little you had to revenge.
我开玩笑的 对，我们在一起真的很愉快 I'm joking. Yeah, we had a good time together.
都是成年人 知道这早晚都得结束 We're adults, and we knew it had to end sometime.
现在我们能一起午餐 谈论亨利 And now we can lunch and talk about Henry.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
真是愚蠢 我真的不该打电话 This was stupid, and I really shouldn't have called.
咳嗽要看医生 That cough needs attending to.
只是咳嗽 It's only a cough.
莫里斯，再见 Good-bye, Maurice.
再见 Good-bye.
-先生，你的菜单 -谢谢 - Your menu, sir. - Thank you.
抱歉，但你要知道 我忌妒每个会动的东西 I'm sorry, but you have to realize I'm jealous of everything that moves.
-我忌妒雨 -你怎么能忌妒雨？ - I'm jealous of the rain. - How can you be jealous of the rain?
你这疤痕哪儿来的？ Where did you get it?
西班牙 Spain.
我想这次是我的战役 That was my war, I'm afraid.
这让我提早退役 It finished me off for this one.
你受枪伤，真浪漫 You were shot. How romantic.
也不见得 我的身体内有根固定针 Not really. They put a pin inside me.
我在想是否和跛足有关 而我能逐渐喜欢它吗？ I wondered about the limp. Could I grow to love it?
你有吗？ And have you?
我只爱你一个 I have never, ever loved anyone as much as you.
怎样？ Yes?
先生，帕金斯先生要见你 A Mr. Parkis to see you, sir.
请他进来 Show him in.
这边请 This way, please.
我马上过来，你是 帕金斯 - I'll be with you in a minute, Mr.-- - The name's Parkis.
萨维其先生的手下 Mr. Savage's man.
请坐，抽根烟 Sit down. Take a cigarette.
不了，先生 值勤时我不抽烟 Oh, no, sir. Not on duty, sir.
当然，除非是为了做掩饰 Unless, of course, for purposes of concealment.
但你现在没有值勤 But you're not on duty now.
某种程度而言 我在值勤 Well, in a manner of speaking, yes, sir.
我出来半个小时做报告 I've just been relieved for half an hour while I make my report.
有事要报告吗？ So there's something to report?
不会什么都没有 It's not quite a blank sheet, sir.
先生，我们是否在哪见过？ Have me met somewhere before, sir?
没有 I don't think so.
就像我说的，先生 Well, like I say, sir...
不是完全没有进展 it's not quite a blank sheet.
否则就什么都没有 But then it never is.
我和我的小子 我们跟踪... Me and my boy, we followed the--
你的小子？ Your boy?
我儿子 My son, sir.
我教他生意怎么做 Yeah, I'm teaching him the business.
小孩很好用 I mean, a boy can be useful in all sorts of ways.
目标当天 搭地铁到毕卡帝利 On the day in question, the party in question went by tube to Piccadilly...
再转站到公园路旅馆 and proceeded to the Park Lane Hotel.
她好像很兴奋 She seemed quite agitated.
跟个好像她很亲密的人见面 And there met a gentleman with whom she was obviously quite close...
因为他们打招呼的方式很热情 since they greeted each other with an affectionate lack of ceremony...
从那点判断... and at one point--
虽然我不太敢断定 他们牵手进去酒吧 although I cannot be certain of this-- held hands along the bar.
-他们牵手？ -是的 - They held hands? - Yes, sir.
那位先生把女士的杯子推给她 Gentleman pushed the lady's glass towards her...
然后... and...
手留在那儿 the hand sort of stayed there...
好一会儿 for some time.
好像透露了一些线索 Which generally indicates a squeeze of that nature.
聊了一下子 他们便前往餐厅 After a short conversation, they proceeded to a restaurant...
叫做... called...
帕麦尔餐听 Palmer's...
而我和我的小子很难接近 which was difficult to gain access to, me being with the boy and all.
但我透过窗户观察他们 But I observed them through the window.
过了一会儿 女士离开了 And after a while, the lady left...
看起来像是...很痛苦 laboring-- well, it seemed to me--
情绪很激动 under great emotion.
情绪激动？你确定 Great emotion. You're sure of that?
绝对是 Oh, without doubt, sir.
然后我跟踪她 斯特兰德街到处女街... Then I followed her down Charing Cross Road to Maiden Lane...
她进了教堂 我只能假设她去放声大哭 where she turned into a church for what I can only presume was a good cry.
她不是罗马人吧？ She's not a Roman, is she, sir?
不是 No.
我想也不是 Thought not.
她没跪下，而是坐着 She didn't kneel, sir, but sat.
从看到她脸的角度 我看得出来 From the angle of her face, I could tell...
她流泪了 tears were an issue.
原谅我个人的情绪 当然 - Forgive the personal touch. - Of course.
我喜欢这位女士 我们的目标 You see, I liked the lady. The party in question.
跟我一样 但你对手的部份看错了 As did I, but you were wrong about the hands.
手的部份？ The hands, sir?
我们手不会触碰这么多 We never so much as touched hands.
老天 Oh, dear.
我真的没想到 莎拉有这种魅力 - I have made a fool of myself. - Sarah has that effect.
萨维其先生该介绍我们 Mr. Savage should have introduced us.
先生，不 Oh, no, sir.
-这都怪我 -没有这么严重 - It was up to me. - Well, it's not serious.
如果你从外面看 真的很好玩 If you look at it from the outside, it's quite funny.
但我在里面 But I'm on the inside, sir.
我担心的不是萨维其先生 而是我的儿子 It's not Mr. Savage I'm worried about so much. It's my boy, sir.
-当我告诉他你是她丈夫... -但你错了 - When I tell him you're the husband-- - But you're wrong.
我是受了她丈夫之托 I'm acting on the husband's behalf.
所以你被要求调查你自己？ So you've requested an investigation yourself?
真矛盾 That's an interesting paradox.
恕我直言 那谁会是调查目标？ But who's the wronged party then, sir, if you'll forgive?
先生，对不起？ Pardon me, sir.
我对这种事很迟钝 I am slow in such matters.
你和她丈夫都被排挤？ Both you and the husband have been supplanted in the lady's affections by--
第三者？ Another?
好好想想 我思考的方式，帕金斯先生 Try to think of it the way I do, Mr. Parkis.
忌妒只因欲望而存在 Jealousy can only exist with desire.
你猎寻欲望 You are on a hunt for desire.
把你自己当作仆人 Just regard yourself as its servant.
当然 这是我的工作 Of course, sir. That's my job.
谢谢 Thank you.
帕金斯，委托的情人 The vicarious lover, Parkis.
-先生，晚安 -晚安 - Good night, sir. - Good night.
我不知他还能报告我她多少事 I wondered how much of her he could reclaim for me.
有时候，我希望我是他 And, for a moment, I wished I was him...
在她的世界中打着探照灯 shining his searchlight around her world.
我是个善妒的男人 I am a jealous man.
我忌妒这袜子 为什么？ - I'm jealous of this stocking. - Why?
因为我没办法这么做 'Cause it does what I can't.
它吻你整只腿 It kisses your whole leg.
我忌妒这个钮扣 And I'm jealous of this button.
可怜，无辜的钮扣 一点也不无辜 - Poor, innocent button. - It's not innocent at all.
跟你整天在一起 而我却不能 It's with you all day, and I'm not.
-你也忌妒我鞋子 -是的 - I suppose you're jealous of my shoes. - Yes.
为什么？ Why?
因为它们把你从我身边带走 Because they'll take you away from me.
我用忌妒的程度衡量我的爱 I measured love by the extent of my jealousy.
而我的忌妒无限 And as my jealousy was infinite...
任何陷入爱情的人都忌妒 Anyone who loves is jealous.
我的爱也无限 my love should have been infinite too.
我讨厌你不开心 能让你开心的事我都不介意 I hate you being unhappy. I don't mind anything you do that makes you happy.
如果我跟别人睡觉？ 这与此事无关 - If I slept with someone else? - That's neither here nor there.
我要你快乐，就是这样 I want you to be happy, that's all.
也许你要个你也能这么做的藉口 Maybe you'd want an excuse to do the same.
我不会 但你做了 - I never would. - But you do.
做什么？ 跟别人睡 - Do what? - Sleep with someone else.
你是指亨利？ 怎么有人能忌妒亨利？ You mean Henry? How can anyone be jealous of Henry?
他拥有你，我没有 He has you. I don't.
我们住在同一屋檐下 We inhabit the same house.
就这样，你很清楚 我只是他的影子 That's all. You know that. I'm the shadow he walks around.
但我爱你 And I love you.
我宁愿死或看你死 也不愿看你和别的男人在一起 I would rather be dead or see you dead than with another man.
我不会跟别的男人在一起 I will never, ever be with another man.
你也许会看我死 但我绝不会和别的男人在一起 You may see me dead, but I will never be with another man.
-我们该去防空洞 -莎拉，留在此地 - We should go down to the shelter. - Stay here, Sarah.
如果炸弹炸到我们 想想什么事不会发生 If a bomb hit us now, think of what wouldn't happen.
什么事不会发生？ 你不会回到亨利身边 - What wouldn't happen? - You wouldn't go back to Henry.
我不会想另一个情人 I would never imagine another lover.
我的忌妒会结束 这会让你快乐吗？ - My jealousy would end. - Would that make you happy?
你现在相信我了吗？ Do you believe me now?
但可悲地，我不相信她 But sadly, I didn't believe her.
我心中有个恶魔 让我从不相信她 There was a devil in my mind that would never let me.
现在我有帕金斯的小孩 玩恶魔的游戏 And now I had Parkis' boy playing the devil's game.
我的儿子已设法接近了目标 My boy managed to gain access, sir.
他非常有用 我称作证物“A” Remarkably useful he can be. I call that Exhibit "A."
他们说承诺就是永远 但我不知道这承诺是不是永远 They say a promise is forever, but I don't know if I can keep this one.
他用忌妒杀死我 你用爱杀死我 He killed me with jealousy. You're killing me with love.
帕金斯也有气味 So he's got the scent too, Parkis.
什么气味？ 爱的气味 - What scent? - The scent of love.
像只猎狗一样偷偷跟踪 Stalking it like a retriever.
他非常有驾力 Well, he's remarkably persistent, sir.
他观察目标只剩局部内衣 He observed the party in question, then in a state of partial undress...
跟个不知名的男子 with an unidentified male.
在哪里？ 卧室 - Where? - In the bedroom, sir.
男的关起门 我儿子出来 The male party then closed the door, and my boy made his exit.
我想你会同意我的想法 这暗示... The implications, and I think you would agree, is that...
他们即将发生 intimacy was...
亲密关系 imminent.
的确是，他是谁？ Indeed. Who is he?
这里就是现场 Here, sir, is where progress was definitely made.
当我儿子离开时 他看了一下前廊的记事簿 As my boy left, he glanced at the appointment book in the front hallway.
目标在隔天三点半 约了牙医 The party in question had a dental appointment at 3:30 the following day.
事实上，三点半 In fact, she visited at 3:30...
她去了细达路65号 而那里根本没有牙医 a premises on 65 Cedar Road where no dentist sign was in evidence.
房子的主人是位史密斯先生 A Mr. Smythe owns the premises, sir.
中间是“Y”的史密斯？ Smythe, with a "Y"?
是的，SMYTHE Yes, sir. S-M-Y-T-H-E.
然后 And...
没有... no--
虽然没有亲密的证据 Though we have no evidence of intimacy...
但这暗示的很明显 the implication is clearly there.
那儿如何？ How is it there?
为何会有假的牙医约诊时间？ Why the fictitious dental appointment, sir?
证物“B” Exhibit "B."
我儿子拍的 My boy took that.
目标二小时后出现 The party in question emerged two hours later.
根据停留的时间 足够判定 Passage of time being amply sufficient for...
发生过亲密关系 intimacy to have taken place.
法院至少要求一小时 The courts generally demand at least an hour, sir.
我儿子本来能提供 她再次出现的相片 Now, my boy would have provided us with photos of her reemergence...
但很不幸的 but for the unfortunate occurrence of him...
他睡着了 falling asleep.
但很幸运的 Luckily, sir, the party in question...
目标误把他当作流浪儿童 mistook him for an abandoned urchin...
摇醒他带他到最近的地铁站 woke him up and led him to the nearest tube station...
所以出现的时间绝对成立 so that the time of reemergence is definitely established...
以后可以当成证据 as was an acquaintance which may have its uses in the future, for all we know.
我该走进去 像个受伤的丈夫面对他吗？ So should I walk in and confront him like an injured husband?
我反对 法庭上会使得事情更复杂 I'm against it, sir. It complicates things in the courts.
不会上法庭 This will never reach court.
友善的安抚 没有兴趣 - An amicable settlement then. - There's lack of interest.
对个叫史密斯的人 没什么值得大惊小怪 One can hardly make a fuss about a man called Smythe.
我只是想见见他 如此而已 I'd just like to see him, that's all.
也许下次蓝斯可以 安排我们不期而遇 Well, perhaps Lance can oblige us next time with a frontal.
蓝斯？ 我儿子 - Lance? - My boy.
根据园桌武士蓝斯洛而命名 Called after Lancelot, the Round Table.
他找到圣杯 He found the Holy Grail.
那是葛列汉，蓝斯洛被发现 跟归娜薇私通 That was Galahad. Lancelot was found in bed with Guinevere.
我没听过 I hadn't heard.
我必须要说 我会建议不要如此 I have to say, sir, I would advise against it.
我想见见 史密斯长得如何 I'd just like to see what a man called Smythe looks like.
能借我你儿子吗？ Will you lend me your boy?
如果你能保证 不会有什么不愉快 Well, if you'll assure me there'll be nothing unpleasant.
莎拉不在那 这地方有联合保证 Sarah isn't there. This scene will have a universal certificate.
小蓝斯洛，跟我来 Come with me, young Lancelot.
去，蓝斯 Go on, Lance.
不需要担心 No need to worry.
现在，你病了 记住了吗？ Now, you're feeling ill, remember?
-有多严重？ -病到足以昏倒 - How ill, sir? - Ill enough to faint.
假装得了吗？ Can you act that?
如果我憋气 整张脸都会苍白 If I hold my breath and go all pale, sir.
很好 Good.
对不起 威尔森医生住这吗？ Excuse me, but does a Dr. Wilson live here?
-他不住这 -老天 - No, I'm afraid he doesn't. - Oh, dear.
这是别人告诉我的住址 我儿子病很重 See, I was given this address, and my boy's quite ill.
我们大老远一路... 你还好吗？ We've traveled all this-- You all right?
你最好进来 你介意吗？抱歉 - You better come in. - Would you mind? I'm sorry.
他非常需要坐一下 I think he needs to sit down badly.
谢谢 Thank you.
我能帮他倒杯水吗？ 你真好 - Can I fetch him a glass of water? - That's very kind.
还是要柳橙汁？ Or some orange squash?
水就行了 麻烦给我柳橙汁 - Water will be fine. - Orange squash, please.
亚瑟，说谢谢 Say thank you, Arthur.
他叫亚瑟？ 是，亚瑟詹姆士 - Is his name Arthur? - Yes, Arthur James.
他母亲很喜欢诗人但尼生 - His mother was fond of Tennyson. - Is she--
他一定是你最大的安慰 还有担心 - He must be of great comfort to you. - And anxiety.
我该自我介绍 I ought to introduce myself.
布里吉 我叫史密斯 - Bridges. - My name is Smythe.
中间是“Y”吗？ 是的，这是我哥哥理查 - With a "Y"? - Yes. This is my brother Richard.
这是布里吉先生 他儿子不太舒服 This is Mr. Bridges. His boy isn't feeling well.
别人给我这个住址 来找威尔森医师 I was given this address for a Dr. Wilson.
这里没这个人 There's no such doctor here.
我见过你的儿子 I've seen your boy before.
也许是大众脸 Maybe on the common.
你来访的真正目的是什么？ What was the real purpose of your visit?
我说了，来找医生 I told you. A doctor.
不，你没生病吧，小子？ No, you're not ill, are you, boy?
人们有时候来我这 People sometimes come to me...
而说不出原因 and can't explain why.
但要是有原因... But if there is a reason--
我哥常常处理... 安静，苏珊 - My brother often deals-- - Hush, Susan.
他们一定得问自己 They must ask themselves.
我认得出你儿子 但你... I recognize your boy, but you--
谁建议你来？ 我们有位相同的朋友 - Who recommended you? - We have a friend in common.
莎拉迈尔斯 Sarah Miles.
尊姓大名是？ And your name is?
班德瑞克斯 Bendrix.
久仰大名 我想也是 - I know all about you. - I'm sure you do.
但你得提示我 But you must enlighten me.
你不是正在禁欲苦修？ 老天！ - Aren't you bound by vows of chastity? - Oh, my dear!
请你走 Go, please.
请你走好吗？ Would you just go?
来，蓝斯洛 Come along, Lancelot.
可怜的莎拉 她只是付出爱 Poor Sarah. She had committed nothing but love.
而帕金斯和他儿子 却监视她一举一动 And here were Parkis and his boy watching her every move.
我要取消监视 I would have called the spies off...
别再受恶魔作祟影响 had the devil not tugged at my elbow once more.
亨利 Henry.
还在雨中？ Still in the rain?
班德瑞克斯，散步 医生的建议 Walking, Bendrix. Doctor recommends it.
跟我散步 Well, walk with me.
我建议喝一杯 I recommend a drink.
莎拉好吗？ How's Sarah?
非常好 Pretty well.
你跟私家侦探谈过？ Did you ever consult that private detective?
我希望你忘记 I'd hoped you had forgotten that.
我工作过度 I was overworked.
我有皇室工作要进行 I had Royal Commission brewing.
亨利，别担心，我替你做了 Don't worry, Henry. I did it for you.
你没有权力 付钱的人是我 - You had absolutely no right. - I'm paying all the charges.
真是令人憎恨的面孔 It's infernal cheek.
亨利，这是报告 Here's the report, Henry.
他名叫史密斯，中间是“Y” His name is Smythe, with a "Y."
亨利，你可能被引导到 花园小径 You've been properly led up the garden path, Henry.
你要让我过吗？ 你不要吗？ - Will you let me pass? - You don't want them?
照片，名字，情书？ Photographs, names, love letters?
现在你能让我走了吗？ Now will you let me go?
我能帮你弄到副本 I can always get you a carbon copy.
真奇怪帽子装有多少尊严？ Strange how much dignity there can be in a hat.
没有它，他看起来 像个无名小卒 Without it, he seemed one of the anonymous...
无依无靠 the dispossessed.
我可怜自己很久了 I had pitied myself for so long, it was odd...
要可怜他 好像有点奇怪 to pity him.
亨利，抱歉 I'm sorry, Henry.
坐下吧 Sit down.
班德瑞克斯，你们俩是情人吗 Were you two lovers, Bendrix?
这是唯一的解释 It's the only explanation.
也是唯一的藉口 The only excuse too.
你不了解你的所作所为 Can't you see that what you've done...
令人毛骨悚然？ is monstrous?
你一定认为我是傻瓜 猜不到 You must think me a fool not to have guessed.
她何不离开我？ Why didn't she leave me?
因为她习惯有你 Because you're a habit she's formed.
你是她的保障 You're her security.
她为何离开你？ 我变得无聊了 - Why did she leave you? - I became a bore.
跟你一样 Like you.
但我并非是无聊的人 But I wasn't born one.
你创造了我 You created me.
她不会离开你 我用忌妒让她觉得很无聊 She wouldn't leave you, so I bored her with my jealousy.
你不能忌妒我 某种程度来说，你赢了 - You can't be jealous of me. - Well, you won, in a way.
我们得结束爱情 We had come to the end of love.
她只跟我做爱，但是... She'd only make love with me, but...
她能跟你购物、下厨、睡觉 she could shop and cook and fall asleep with you.
她还是很喜欢你 She's still very fond of you.
光是喜欢不能满足我 One isn't satisfied with fondness.
-但我可以 -这让你成为她的皮条客 - I was. - Yes, and that made you her pimp.
无聊的丈夫 知道他自己的拖鞋在哪 The bore of a husband who knows where his slippers are...
却不曾注意他老婆一眼 but never notices his wife.
但亨利 你不是唯一的皮条客 But you weren't the only pimp, Henry.
战争才是最大的皮条客 The war was the greatest pimp of all.
而战争绝对不会影响我们 And the V-1s never affected us until...
除非我们的爱结束 the act of love was over.
结束时，你打算怎么做？ So what will you do when it ends?
我告诉你，不会结束 It won't end. I told you.
我指的是战争 I meant the war.
那是唯一可以肯定的事 It's the only certain thing.
什么意思？ What do you mean?
让我能见你 That allows me to see you.
你以为你不见我时 You think love ends...
爱就结束了吗？ when you don't see me?
未来就是等着被发觉 To be is to be perceived.
当你跟亨利在一起时 我还存在你心中吗？ Do I exist for you when you're with Henry?
有 Yes.
这就是你留在 亨利身边的原因？ Isn't that why you stay with Henry?
因为你知道这会结束？ Because you know this will end?
不是 No.
我们该到地下室去 我的女房东可能在那 - We should go to the basement. - My landlady might be there.
-有关系吗？ -也许对她有关 - Does that matter? - Maybe to her.
-莫利斯，炮弹打的很近了 -我去看看 - It's close, Maurice. - I'll go and check.
我跟你去 我马上回来 - Let me go with you. - I'll be one second.
有人在吗？ Hello?
没人在，空无一人 There's nobody there. It's clear.
我没听见巨响 I never heard the bang.
五分钟后我醒来 I awoke after five minutes...
或是五秒钟 or five seconds...
世界整个不同了 to a changed world.
当下 我没有任何情感束缚 For a moment, I was free of feeling...
爱、恨、忌妒 love, hate, jealousy.
都像幸福的感觉一样 And it all felt like happiness.
莎拉
老天 Oh, my God.
你还活着？ You're alive?
你听起来很失望 You sound disappointed.
你受伤了 You're hurt.
我割伤自己，如此而已 I just cut myself, that's all.
你在地上干嘛？ What were you doing on the floor?
祷告 Praying.
向什么祷告？ To what?
任何存在的东西 To anything that might exist.
下楼来比较实际点 Well, it'd have been more practical to have come downstairs.
我有 I did.
你为何没叫醒我？ Well, why didn't you wake me?
我试过了 I tried.
但你一动也不动 You didn't move.
我不明白 I don't understand.
我以为你死了 I knew for certain you were dead.
没有什么可以祷告的吧？ There wasn't much to pray for then, was there?
奇迹 A miracle.
我们不相信奇迹 And we don't believe in those.
不相信 No.
警报是要你离开 And that siren means you go.
对 Yes.
请不要 Please don't.
我一定得走，亨利会... I have to. Henry will--
忘了亨利 Forget Henry.
你不明白，你走了 You don't understand. You were gone.
现在我回来了 Now I'm back.
莎拉，很抱歉让你失望 但是... I'm sorry to disappoint you, Sarah, but--
爱不会因为 Love doesn't end...
我们见不着双方而结束 just because we don't see each other.
是吗？ Doesn't it?
人们还是继续爱着上帝吧？ People go on loving God, don't they?
一辈子 All their lives.
没见过他也还爱 Without seeing Him.
这不是我要的爱 That's not my kind of love.
也许没有其他种类 Maybe there's no other kind.
所以最后我只是让人失望 So I was a disappointment in the end.
我活下来了 I lived.
我和她之间本来已经结束了 And that was the end of the affair...
直到我见到你手中 侦探的名片 until I met you with that detective's card in your hand.
我想知道 为何我们很久没见到你 I wondered why we hadn't seen you.
亨利，你该回家 不然你会感冒致死 You should go home, Henry. You'll catch your death.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
你好 Hello.
那真是容易，先生 很好玩 It was quite easy, sir. It was such a crush.
迈尔斯女士以为 我是他部门的一位朋友 And Mrs. Miles thought I was one of his friends from the ministry.
迈尔斯先生以为我是她的朋友 And Mr. Miles thought I was one of her friends.
我从我儿子那 得知到她房间的路 Well, I knew the way to her room from my boy.
任何人要阻止我 我就说是找厕所 Anybody would have stopped me, I would have been looking for the toilet.
当然，没人阻止 Of course, nobody did.
你觉得那是个好的鸡尾酒会？ Did you think it was a good cocktail party?
非常成功 Highly successful I would say, sir.
迈尔斯女士看来 有点不舒服 But Mrs. Miles looked a bit out of sorts.
我把这当作证物“D” I refer to this as Exhibit "D."
你看了吗？ Did you look at it?
我相信这很自然 I ascertained its nature, sir.
从某方面判断 她并不谨慎 And from one entry, judged she wasn't the cautious type.
很高兴他今天回来了 So happy. M returns today.
据我的经验 日记常泄漏一个人的秘密 My experience of diaries is they always give things away, sir.
人们发明自己的小密码 你很快就能明白 People invent their little codes. You soon see through them, sir.
我起床，阳光普照... I woke up and the sun was shining.
这里面记载了好几年 This covers several years.
我希望你很满意 I hope you're satisfied, sir.
又开始幸福的生活 但昨晚我梦到... Life was going to be happy again. But last night I dreamt--
帕金斯，我想我们可以结案了 I think this may well close our account, Parkis.
对，我也这么觉得 Yeah. I had a feeling it might, sir.
我很喜欢我们的合作关系 I have enjoyed our association, sir...
如果还能在不好的状况下 谈论快乐的事情 if one can talk of enjoying under the sad circumstances.
我也这样觉得 As have I.
我希望你不讨厌纪念品 So I hope you wouldn't resent a memento, sir.
这很有历史价值 There's quite a history with that.
你记得波尔顿的案子？ 不太记得 - Do you remember the Bolton case? - I can't say I do.
当时非常轰动 It caused quite a stir at the time, sir.
波尔顿女士 她的佣人，还有个男的 Lady Bolton, her maid and a man.
一起全被发现 All discovered together.
床边有个烟灰缸 That ashtray stood beside the bed, sir.
在女士旁边 On the lady's side.
帕金斯，我该好好珍惜 Well, I shall treasure it, Parkis.
要是烟灰缸会说话的话... If ashtrays could speak, sir.
的确 Indeed.
也许我该等会儿再打来 先确定没有证据遗漏 Perhaps I should call later, sir, just to make sure there were no loose ends?
帕金斯，谢谢你 Thank you, Parkis.
-先生，晚安 -晚安 - Good night, sir. - Good night.
“替代情人” “莫利斯班德瑞克斯着”
有时候我厌倦了 要说服他我爱他 Sometimes I get tired of trying to convince him that I love him...
而且永远爱他 and shall love him forever.
他像个辩护律师一样 攻击而且扭曲我的话 He pounces on my words like a barrister and twists them.
结束的时候 你打算怎么做？ So what will you do when it ends?
你以为你见不到我 爱就结束了吗？ You think love ends when you don't see me?
要体验过才知道 To be is to be perceived.
你和亨利在一起时 我还存在心中你吗？ Do I exist for you when you're with Henry?
是的 Yes.
这不就是你们在一起的原因？ 因为你知道这会结束？ Isn't that why you stay with Henry? Because you know this will end?
不
我们该去地下室 我的女房东也许在那儿 - We should go to the basement. - My landlady might be there.
-有关系吗？ -也许对她而言有关系 - Does that matter? - Maybe to her.
-莫利斯，炮弹打的很近了 -我去看看 - It's close, Maurice. - I'll go and check.
我跟你去 马上就回来 - Let me go with you. - I'll be one second.
有人在吗？ Hello?
没人，什么都没有 There's nobody there. It's clear.
莫利斯！
老天！ Oh, God!
老天！ Oh, God. Oh, God.
神啊！别带他走 Oh, God, don't take him.
但你已经将他带走了 But You had.
莫利斯...
他已经死了 Whatever was him was gone.
你将他带走了 You'd taken it.
我从不相信祷告 I'd never believed in prayer.
上帝，请把他带回来 让他活下去 Oh, God, please bring him back. Let him live.
我不相信你 但请你让他活下去 I don't believe in You, but please let him live.
上帝，求求你 Dear God, please.
让他... Let him--
莫利斯...
上帝，求求你，让他活下去 Dear God, please. Let him live.
请把他带回来 Please bring him back.
别带走他 Please don't take him.
我会永远放弃他 I'll give him up forever.
拜托，让他活过来 Only please, let him be alive.
让他活，我保证 我不会再见他了 Let him live and I promise I'll never see him again.
莎拉
老天！ Oh, my God.
你还活着？ You're alive?
你听起来很失望 You sound disappointed.
如果他活着，那我便如同死了 But if he was alive, now I was dead.
莎拉
你在地板上干嘛？ What were you doing on the floor?
祷告 Praying.
对什么祷告？ To what?
任何存在的东西 To anything that might exist.
我怎么跟他解释 这些不合逻辑的事？ How could I explain to him what made no sense to me?
你没动 You didn't move.
我以为你死了 I knew for certain you were dead.
那也没啥好祷告的，不是吗？ Then there wasn't much to pray for then, was there?
奇迹 A miracle.
但我们不相信奇迹 And we don't believe in that.
警报声意味着要你离开 And that siren means you go.
对 Yes.
世界上已经没有什么 对我有意义了 And I knew that nothing in this world would make sense to me again.
抱歉让你失望 Sorry to disappoint you.
莎拉
爱不会因为我们 Love doesn't end...
见不着面就结束 just because we don't see each other.
对吗？ Doesn't it?
人们还是爱着上帝，不是吗？ People go on loving God, don't they...
虽然他们一辈子也没见过他 all their lives without seeing Him?
那不是我这种爱 That's not my kind of love.
或许也没有别种 Maybe there's no other kind.
我没办法为那种承诺负责 I can't be held to that promise.
但有东西告诉我我必须负责 But something told me I would be.
我挑战了命运 I had tempted fate...
命运接受了 and fate had accepted.
我现在在没有他的荒漠里 So I was in the desert now, the desert without him.
我开始跟亨利旅行 到南英格兰的民间防卫组织 I started a tour with Henry, civil defense in southern England.
亨利和我就如同 墓中睡在一起的尸体 Henry and I sleeping side by side like figures on tombs.
在比威尔海边 新强化的防空洞里 In the new reinforced shelter at Bigwell-on-Sea...
一位执勤员亲我 a chief warden kissed me.
我让他这么做 但什么感觉也没有 I allowed him to but felt nothing.
上帝，我开始相信你 I'm beginning to believe in You, God...
也许这就是你的神迹 and maybe that's how You work.
你掏空我的爱 再用空虚填满 You empty me of love, then fill that emptiness.
他们推荐我当OBE They're recommending me for an O. B. E.
那是什么？ What's that?
英国司令官下面的职位 A step below a C.B.E.
当我退休时 我将会是英国骑士司令官 When I retire, I'll probably be a K.B.E.
真让人困惑 他们不能只用一个名称吗？ It's confusing. Couldn't they stick to the same letters?
你不想当迈尔斯夫人吗？ Wouldn't you like to be Lady Miles?
这是英国人最棒的一天 This was the British people's finest day...
胜利荣归日 德国战争结束了 V-E day, the end of the German war.
一个似曾相识的人 A man we seem to have seen before somewhere...
从白厅的阳台往下看 looks down from a balcony in Whitehall.
整个伦敦都很开心 因为和平 The whole of London seemed happy because there was peace...
再也没有炸弹 and there were no more bombs.
但我不确定我喜欢和平 But I'm not sure I like the peace.
我追随他的脚步 I walked his walks.
想他会在哪 Tried to think where he'd be.
然后我放弃了 Then I gave up.
我想，现在世界和平 I thought that now the world is at peace...
也许我该有些和平 maybe I should have some.
我告诉他一切 I told him it all.
听过我誓言的人也一定听过 And Whoever heard my promise must have heard it too...
也一定知道 and must have known it already...
既然上帝无所不知 since God knows everything.
知识似乎真的很残忍 How cruel that knowledge seemed.
我发誓前他就知道我会发誓 It knew what I would say before I made that promise.
知道我会遵守 Knew it would keep me to it.
非常清楚 Knew me the way his hands knew me.
亲爱的，莎拉 Sarah, darling.
亨利
是你 You.
知道我在楼梯间会见到他 Knew I would meet him on the stairs.
-出去走走？ -是的 - Been out for a walk? - Yes.
今晚天候真恶劣 It's a filthy night.
你湿透了 有天你会感冒而死 You're wet through. One day you'll catch your death of cold.
晚安 Good night.
知道他会恨我 Knew he would hate me.
-星期三 -星期三，让我看看 - Wednesday. - Wednesday. Let me check.
-星期四可以吗？ -那就星期四 - Would Thursday do? - Thursday then.
一点，公园路旅馆 The Park Lane Hotel at 1:00.
我慢慢来，不想太早到 I took my time. I didn't want to be early.
你为何想要见面？ Why did you want to meet?
我要告诉你 过去两年我死过 I wanted to tell you I'd been dead for the last two years.
再也不能没有你 I can't be without you any longer.
他很寂寞 I think he's lonely.
当然，我没有 But, of course, I didn't.
他从没真正注意过我 好几年了 You know he's never really noticed me, not for years.
也许你给他理由这么做 Maybe you've given him reason.
我能给他什么理由？ What reason could I give?
你给我什么理由？ What reason did you give me?
没有 None.
你写新书吗？ 没错 - Are you on a new book? - Of course.
不是写我们吧？ 你威胁要写的那本 It's not about us, is it? The one you threatened to write.
花一年的时间写 A book takes a year to write.
要报复太难了 It's too hard work for revenge.
如果你知道报复 有多么不值得 If you knew how little you had to revenge--
不，我开玩笑的 我们在一起很愉快 No, I'm joking. We had a good time together.
我是说，我们已经是成年人 I mean, we're adults and...
终有结束的时候 we knew it had to end sometime.
而且现在我们还能一起午餐 谈谈亨利 And now we can lunch and talk about Henry.
以前的话，他会跟来 In the old days, he would have followed.
我们会和好，或是做爱 We would have made up or made love.
我对上帝说 就像我跟我父亲说 I said to God, as I might have said to my father...
“亲爱的上帝，我疲倦了” "Dear God, I'm tired.
“厌倦没有他的时候” I'm tired of being without him.
“都是因为你” And it's all because of You."
吉柏特医生约诊 我几乎忘记了 Dr. Gilbert's appointment. I'd almost forgotten.
他问我感觉如何 He asked me how I felt.
我说我什么感觉都没有 I said I felt nothing.
我的心早就跟石头一样 There was a stone where my heart should be.
神父，我需要帮助 I need help, Father.
莎拉，上帝赐给我们自由意志 You know, Sarah, God granted us free will.
很好，都好了 我要离开我丈夫 Good. So it's settled. I'm leaving my husband.
-你不能 -为何不能？ 我是个妓女、骗子 - You can't. - Why can't I? I'm a whore and a liar.
我要求亨利离婚 I'm asking Henry for a divorce.
因为你很好 所以你不能这么做 You can't because you're good.
比我认识的任何人都好 Better than any person I know.
神父，你错了 你不了解我 You're wrong, Father, and you don't know me.
我发现一个小孩睡在楼梯上 I found a small boy sleeping on the steps...
脸上有胎记 with a birthmark covering his face...
怀疑到底是什么神明 让那小孩变成那样 and wondered what kind of God would give a child that.
你迷路了吗？ Are you lost?
没关系，没关系 It's all right. It's all right.
你住哪儿？ Where do you live then?
-你不会有事吧？ -不会，女士 - You'll be all right now? - Yes, ma'am.
我亲吻他脸颊 希望能消除胎记 I kissed his cheek and wished I could wash it away.
突然我又感觉很快乐 And suddenly I felt happy again.
我能解放自己，让自己自由 I could free myself of this.
我要... I am...
...离开你 leaving you.
过去五年来 For the last five years...
我还是... I have been...
深爱着... in love...
莫利斯 with Maurice.
我爱你 I love you.
你知道吗？ Do you know that?
亨利，为什么现在说？ Why now, Henry?
为何你现在才说？ Why do you say that now?
我跟班德瑞克斯喝过酒 I had a drink with Bendrix.
真是可怕 A horrible drink.
我不能没有你 I can't do without you.
你可以 Oh, yes, you can, I thought.
你改变过你的报纸一次 你也很快就习惯 You changed your newspaper once and you soon got used to it.
亨利，怎么了？ What's wrong, Henry?
班德瑞克斯让你不开心？ Did Bendrix upset you in some way?
亲爱的 我知道我不是个好丈夫 I know I haven't been much of a husband to you, my dear.
我们是好朋友 We are good friends.
你可以没有朋友 You can do without a friend.
莎拉，别离开我 Don't leave me, Sarah.
再和我多相处几年 Stick it out a few more years.
我保证，我会试 I'll try. I promise.
我怀疑是巧合吗？ Is this coincidence? I wondered.
还是生命都是这样？ Or the way life happens?
如果这就是生命 我要认命吗？ And if this is life, am I stuck with it?
不管是什么 But whatever it is...
我无法抵抗 I can't fight it anymore.
它赢了，我们输了 It has won and we have lost.
-哈啰？ -莎拉 - Hello? - Sarah.
她不在 She's not here.
莎拉，我认得你的声音 跟我说话 I know your voice, Sarah. Talk to me.
莎拉
停在这里 Stop here.
-谢谢你 -非常谢谢你，老爷 - Thank you. - Thank you very much, guv.
麻烦，一张票 One, please.
谢谢 Thank you, sir.
莎拉
你怎么拿到的？ How did you get it?
上周你有个酒会 You had a drinks party last week.
-对，那个儿小的人 -对 - Yes. That small man. - Yes.
他是我的探子 He is my snoop.
是吗
真荒谬 How ridiculous.
不会比你还荒谬 It's no more ridiculous than you.
你怎么不告诉我？ Why didn't you tell me?
我试过，每次我想告诉你 就有别的事发生 I tried. Each time I tried, something would happen.
胡说，莎拉 不是这么顺利 - That's mumbo jumbo, Sarah. - It doesn't work like that.
意外 Accidents.
莫利斯，小事由 上帝冥冥中注定 Little things. God is in the details, Maurice.
你不可以相信 You can't believe that.
你相信冥冥之说？ Do you believe in things you can't see?
-你是指上帝吗？ -我是说你 - You mean Him? - I mean you.
我从没停止爱过你 即使我无法见你 You see, I never stopped loving you, even though I couldn't see you.
我妈让我受洗成天主教徒 My mother baptized me a Catholic.
我爸是犹太人 所以我们没实施过教义 My father was Jewish, so we never practiced.
但她总说 有天希望能这么做 But she always said she hoped it would take.
就像施打疫苗 Like a vaccination.
我一生中只许下两个承诺 I've only made two promises in my life.
一个就是嫁给亨利 One was to marry Henry...
另一个就是再也不见你 the other to stop seeing you.
两个都无法遵守 And I'm too weak to keep either.
我知道你不想信他 I know you don't believe in Him...
但试着相信 but try to.
跟他说 Talk to Him.
没办法 I can't.
告诉他我很抱歉 Tell Him I'm sorry.
我是人 I'm too human...
太软弱了 too weak.
告诉他我无法信守承诺 Tell Him I can't keep my promises.
我厌倦没有你的日子 I'm tired of being without you.
送你回去吧 我不想回家 - Let's get you home. - I don't want to go home.
我知道 I know.
我们破除魔法了吗？ So have we broken the spell?
也不是世界末日吧？ The world didn't end, did it?
某方面说来，是 It did, in a way.
但，都是这样 But then, it always did.
莫利斯，我能睡了吗？ Can I sleep now, Maurice?
请让我入眠 Please let me sleep.
是亨利 别回答 - It's Henry. - Don't answer it.
为什么不回答？ 我们迟早要告诉他 Why not? We'll have to tell him sometime.
跟我一起走 去哪儿？ - Come away with me. - Where?
哪里都好，布莱顿 Anywhere. Brighton.
在开始吵架前我想有几天宁静 I want a few days peace before the arguments begin.
亨利从不吵架 我不是指亨利 - Well, Henry never argues. - I wasn't talking about Henry.
痛苦很容易写 Pain is easy to write.
痛苦时 我们是非常单独的个体 In pain, we're all drably individual.
但幸福有什么好写的呢？ But what can one write about happiness?
不适合你，是我的 It doesn't suit you. And it's mine.
-你要吗？价钱在这 -多少钱？ - You want it? There's a price. - How much?
我能再付吗？ Can I pay again?
我要小孩 多少个？ - I want children, you know. - How many?
先一个 只要一个？ - I'll start with one. - Only one?
你想先要两个？ You want to start with two?
保证吗？ Is that a promise?
是的 Yes.
我们回饭店 Let's get you back to the hotel.
-只要那二个 -很好 - Just those two. - Very good, sir.
有点乱 对，你说得对 It is a bit of a mess. Yeah, you're right.
生意好吗？ 是，还算... - Business going well? - Yes, it's going--
还在工作？别担心 Still on the job? Don't worry.
-天啊 -这里，跟我来 - Oh, dear. - Here. Come with me.
过来 这回你儿子在哪？ Come. So where's your boy this time?
留在家里 I left him at home, sir.
真不聪明 他善于不被注意 Hardly a wise move. He'd have had the sense not to get noticed.
你也这么认为？ 也许我不适合这工作 You think so, sir? Perhaps I wasn't cut out for this job.
告诉你老板，情况特殊 Tell your employer the circumstances are unique.
你是怎么说的？目标是个作家 What was your phrase? The party in question is a writer.
-他们已经注意到了 -似乎是 - They notice everything. - They certainly seem to, sir.
这次谁雇你？ 我不能说 - So who's hired you this time? - I'm not at liberty to say, sir.
让我猜，忌妒的丈夫 Let me guess. The jealous husband.
我从没想过 会再回来办这案子 I never expected to be recalled to this case, sir.
你的行业很安全 Yours is a secure profession.
只要像我们这样的傻瓜喜欢 你就不会失业 As long as fools like us love, your employment never ends.
可以这样说 You could put it like that.
爱不会结束，是吗？ And love never ends, does it?
似乎不会 It seems not.
你需要什么？ So what do you need?
我们从事不法勾当的相片？ Photographs of us in flagrante delicto?
旅馆帐单的影本？勾搭的证据？ 我们乐意提供 Copies of hotel bills? Evidence of soiled sheets? We'd be happy to oblige.
不，他们要我跟踪你 通知他你的行踪 No, my brief is to follow you. Inform him as to your whereabouts.
当然，你会 Which, of course, you'll do.
先生，在受雇之下 我服务迅速 I'm obliged to, sir, under the terms of my employment, posthaste.
你不需要辅助的证据？ 离婚法庭会需要 Won't you need supplementary evidence? The divorce courts will demand it.
如果到那个地步 他们会需要 They generally do, sir, if it come to that.
证物“A” Well, Exhibit "A."
在往布莱顿火车上 购买三明治的发票 Receipt for two sandwiches bought on the train to Brighton.
手工三明治的确是亲密的证据 Mutual sandwiches are surely evidence of intimacy, aren't they?
可以大胆的这么解释 证物“B” - They could be so construed, sir. - Exhibit "B."
坐北斗七星的两张票 Two tickets for a Big Dipper.
你好像替我工作 是，但还没完呢 - You seem to be doing my job for me. - Yes, but we haven't quite got there.
什么能了结我们？ What would clinch it for us?
什么才能确定能够离婚？ What would make divorce a certainty?
自然是一些... Generally, sir, some kind of photographic evidence of--
发生关系的证据 Of intimacy.
要判定的话非常有用 Would be most useful, sir, if it came to such a pass.
帕金斯，的确非常有用 It will, Parkis. It most certainly will.
莎拉
喝下 Here.
我梦到我们有小孩 I dreamt we had a child.
我们会有 We will.
我们一起在床上 We were on the bed together.
房间都是水 我们中间有个小孩 The room filled up with water. There was a child between us.
为什么有水？ Why water?
海从窗户进来 The sea had come in the window.
你会跟我结婚 So you'll marry me.
这是承诺 That's a promise.
费兹贺柏女士 摄政王开始为他的夫人盖房子 The prince regent began building it for his mistress, Mrs. Fitzherbert.
美丽但有瑕疵 Beautiful but flawed.
她怎么会有瑕疵？ 她是天主教徒 - How was she flawed? - She was Catholic.
当然，不可能 Impossible, of course.
他爱她 So he loved her.
是，但他和布里斯维克的 新教徒卡洛琳公主结婚 Yes, but he married Princess Caroline of Brunswick who was Protestant...
但很大 but huge.
他盖了座海市蜃楼 And he built this huge folly to impossibility.
亨利，不要现在 莎拉，原谅我，我必须这么做 - Not now, Henry. - Forgive me, Sarah. I had to.
老天，亨利，不要现在 亨利，你要干嘛 - Oh, God, please. Henry, not now. - You had to what, Henry?
谈谈 回家去 - Talk. - Go back home.
-你不能永远占有她 -我知道，但是... - You can't hold on to her forever. - I know, but--
亨利 一个忌妒丈夫的角色不适合你 It hardly suits you, Henry, the role of a jealous husband.
拜托，我不是来讲理 Please, I don't mean to make a scene.
亨利，回家 Henry, go home.
班德瑞克斯，我才不忌妒 I'm not jealous, Bendrix.
你是怎么说的？ What was it you said?
情人是忌妒 丈夫则是荒唐 Lovers are jealous. Husbands are ridiculous.
我从来就不是她的情人 I was never her lover.
恐怕也不是个丈夫 Not much of a husband either, I'm afraid.
但你雇了我们的侦探 But you hired our detective.
我要知道她在哪儿 I had to find out where she was.
你知道她想离婚 So you know. She wants a divorce.
老小子，这是不可能 That won't be possible, old man.
你有异议吗？ You'll contest it?
不，但至少要三个月 No, but it would take at least three months.
亨利，什么三个月？ 一生中的三个月吗？ Well, what's three months, Henry, out of a lifetime?
一半 Half.
什么的一半？ Half of what?
恐怕是半辈子 Of a lifetime, I'm afraid.
莎拉快死了 Sarah's dying.
她医生拿着她检验报告结果 Her doctor called the night she didn't come back...
在她没回来的那晚打电话来 with the result of some tests.
我去敲你的门 I knocked on your door.
我想你们两在一起 I imagined you were both there.
我们这时候行为多奇怪 How oddly we behave at such moments.
亲爱的，你不该淋雨的 You shouldn't get wet, darling.
-亨利，你不喜欢雨吗？ -喜欢，但，亲爱的... - Don't you like the rain, Henry? - Yes, dear, but--
你收到消息了 是好消息吗？ You've heard news, Henry. Is it good?
亲爱的，不是 No, dear.
莫利斯，你看别许下承诺 你可能要遵守 You see, Maurice, never make a promise. You may have to keep it.
班德瑞克斯 你不该忌妒我 You should never have been jealous of me, Bendrix.
我娶莎拉时，对她伤害很大 我现在才知道 I did Sarah a great disservice when I married her. I realize that now.
我不是那种情人型的人 I'm not the sort that makes a lover.
她需要像你这样的人 She wanted someone like you.
我不确定有这么简单 I'm not sure it's as simple as that.
如果你不介意我问 If you don't mind me asking...
当时候到时，我要你也在 I'd like you there when the time comes.
也许时候不会到 It may not come.
你们是不相信奇迹的 You of all people don't believe in miracles.
不，但莎拉相信 No, but Sarah does.
我一直相信我会先死 I'd always believed that I'd be the one to die first...
而莎拉就知道该怎么办 and that Sarah would know what to do.
亨利，你迷惑了吗？ Are you at a loss, Henry?
非常迷惑 I am quite.
如果你搬进来 会省点麻烦 And it would save you a bit if you moved in with us.
莎拉总是说你的小说 没有该有的成功 Sarah always said your books weren't as successful as they should have been.
我在部门里的时候 你白天可以在那工作 You could be there, working in the daytime, while I'm at the ministry.
晚上，我们两个就可... And at night, we could both--
所以我搬到北侧的房间... And so I moved to the north side of the common...
很奇怪 我马上觉得有家的感觉 and, oddly enough, I felt instantly at home.
有何需要效劳的吗，神父？ Can I help you, Father?
我来找迈尔斯女士 她身体不适 - I've come about Mrs. Miles. - She's indisposed.
她病了？ You mean, she's ill, don't you?
是的 是 - Yes, I suppose I do. - Yes.
她来找我几次 而我知道她离开前想再见我... She's been to see me several times, and I know she'd like to see me before--
她留话给我 她不想被打扰 She's left word with me she's not to be disturbed.
她先生在吗？ Is her husband here?
不在
她跟我说过你 我知道 - She told me about you. - I know she did.
神父，我是情夫 I'm the lover, Father.
是谁？ Who was that?
邮差 The postman.
寄什么来？ What did he bring?
搞错住址了 He had the wrong address.
邮差怎么会这样 How odd for a postman.
那天发生什么事？ You know what happened that day?
你以为我死了 You thought I was dead...
而我没死 and I wasn't.
不，亲爱的 No, darling.
那间房间有事发生 Something happened in that room.
周遭同样的墙 There were the same walls around me...
同样的阳光照进窗户里 the same sunlight coming in the window...
但一切都不一样了 but nothing will ever be the same again.
莎拉，你不可以相信 You can't believe this, Sarah.
但这是真的 But it's true.
我是最爱你 I never loved anyone as I loved you.
当你从那扇门进来，脸上有血 And when you came through that door with blood on your face...
带来另一种爱 another kind of love came with you.
我开始相信 And I caught belief...
像得病一样 like a disease.
我掉进信仰 I fell into belief like I'd...
就像我恋爱一样 fallen into love.
我想要抵抗 And I tried to fight it...
但我已经无法抵抗了 but I haven't any fight left.
不是邮差吧？ It wasn't the postman, was it?
不是 No, it wasn't.
亲爱的莫利斯 你不能继续抵抗 Dear Maurice, you can't go on fighting.
毕竟只有爱 It's only love, after all.
你带走她了 So You're taking her...
但你还没带走我 but You haven't got me yet.
我不要你的安详、你的爱 I don't want Your peace and Your love.
我一生都要莎拉 I wanted Sarah for a lifetime...
你却从我身边带走她 and You're taking her from me.
上帝，我恨你 So I hate You, God.
如同你存在一样，我恨你 I hate You as though You existed.
班德瑞克斯，你要帮我 我无法... You have to help me, Bendrix. I can't.
我会 I will.
没有她我活不下去 I can't live in a world where she's gone.
我会帮你 I'll help you.
如果我早知道 我会好好安排一切 I would have taken care of all the arrangements, if I'd known.
确定你不同意火化？ Surely you disapprove of cremation?
我宁愿安排天主教葬礼 I would have arranged a Catholic burial.
亨利，但她不是天主教徒吧？ But she wasn't a Catholic, was she, Henry?
我们知道她想受洗的心愿 We recognize the baptism of desire.
她很像在祷告 She said things that seemed like prayers.
我们安排好了 神父，不能更改了 We've made all the arrangements. We can't alter things now, Father.
亨利，你别想更改 报上已登了讣闻 You wouldn't want talk, Henry. There's the notice in the Times.
不...
神父，如果你早点来... 请别认为... If you'd come a little sooner, Father-- Please, don't think--
迈尔斯先生 我对你没有什么成见 I think nothing bad of you, Mr. Miles.
也许是对我吧？ 班德瑞克斯先生，别担心 - Perhaps me? - Don't worry, Mr. Bendrix.
你现在做什么都没用了 Nothing you can do will affect her now.
-她是个好女人 -她不是 - She was a good woman. - She was nothing of the sort.
她可以随便勾搭任何男人 She could put the blinkers on any man.
神父，她骗你 就像她骗她先生和我 She deceived you, Father, as she deceived her husband and me.
-她完全是个骗子 -你没有权力这么说 - She was a consummate liar. - You've no right.
-让他说吧 -别怜悯我！ - Let the poor man rave. - Don't give me your professional pity!
-留给你自己告诫的时候用！ -你随时都找得到我 - Keep it for your confessional! - You can find me there anytime you want.
我不要你 我不是莎拉 I don't want you. I'm no Sarah.
-神父，抱歉 -不需要 - I'm sorry, Father. - No need to be.
我明白人痛苦时的感受 I know when a man is in pain.
神父，我不痛苦 我怨恨 I'm not in pain, Father. I'm in hate.
我恨莎拉 因为她相信你的胡言乱语 I hate Sarah, because she was a tart to your mumbo jumbo.
我恨亨利 因为她依赖他 I hate Henry, because she stuck to him.
我恨你和你想像中的上帝 因为你从我们身边带走她 And I hate you and your imaginary God, because you took her away from us.
你的确很善妒！ 你们都下地狱！ - You are a good hater. - To hell with all of you!
亨利，抱歉 I'm sorry, Henry.
班德瑞克斯，事实是... The thing is, Bendrix...
我一直很清楚 I always knew.
我知道她跟某个人有染 I knew she was with someone...
但我没想到是你 but I never thought you.
但奇怪的是 But the odd thing is...
我却很高兴 I'm glad it was.
见到你在这令人遗憾又欣慰 It's a sad pleasure to see you here, sir...
过去的就让它过去 where bygones are always bygones.
你都跟这么远吗？ Do you always follow your people as far as this?
她是个好人 She was a very fine lady, sir.
在鸡尾酒会 她给我一杯雪利酒 At a cocktail party, she handed me a glass of sherry.
南非雪利酒？ Was it South African sherry?
我不知道 I wouldn't know, sir.
像她的人不多了 There weren't many like her.
我儿子常常提起她 My boy, now, he's always speaking of her.
帕金斯，你儿子好吗？ How is your boy, Parkis?
他本来该很好 虽然今天有点生气 He's exceptionally well, sir. Though he's a bit upset today.
想着她以天主教仪式下葬 He imagined she'd be buried in a Catholic way.
为什么他这么想？ And why would he think that?
年轻人都这么想 Young boys, sir, they get these ideas.
虽然我得承认 甚至无法解释 Though I have to admit, even I can't explain it.
解释什么？ Explain what?
在有约诊的那天 她带他去地铁 On the day of her assignation, she walked him to a tube.
她以为他走失了 给他钱，亲他脸颊 She thought he was lost, gave him a coin and kissed him on his cheek.
在他有胎记的脸上 On his afflicted cheek, sir.
接下来好几个礼拜 And over the weeks that followed...
他的胎记慢慢不见了 his affliction gradually went away.
我试着保持他的理性 但他发誓是因为她的缘故 I tried to keep him rational, but he swears it was because of her.
蓝斯，跟班德瑞克斯先生打招呼 Say hello to Mr. Bendrix, Lance.
先生，你好 Hello, sir.
一开始我说这是本 关于怨恨的日记 I wrote at the start that this was a diary of hate.
我恨你就如同你真的存在一般 I hated You as though You existed.
现在我厌倦了恨 Now I am tired of hating...
但你还在 but You're still there.
你的狡猾无止尽 So Your cunning is infinite.
你用我的恨 赢走我的坦白 You used my hate to win my acknowledgement.
亨利，谢谢你 Thank you, Henry.
我只有一个祷告 And I've only one prayer left.
亲爱的上帝，忘了我 Dear God, forget about me.
眷顾她还有亨利 Look after her and Henry.
“但永远...”
“别再来...”
“烦我”